Not that I haven't been doing anything, but sometimes the little everyday things can add up to nothingness because they are everyday, you forget about the little things that make up your life and how each in their own way - with the people you love - they make the emotions and the memories that stay with you forever. If you were to ask me what I have been doing, I would probably answer something along the lines of, "Not much - maths, chemistry, biology, literature, modern history, online drivers tests (yes - I'm still trying to achieve the five perfects in a row!) and just everyday life stuff." It doesn't sound particularly exciting. I wake up every morning and painfully try to open my eyes with the thought I have to get up - but I don't want to do everything again! Once I'm into it, though, it doesn't seem nearly as bad. (With the exception perhaps of biology. Blergh! I'd just as soon leave that out, but if I am heading to a future in doula-naturopathy, I guess it is something I will have to learn!)
It is easy to wish these days away - and I am ashamed to say I have done it many times. We can be encouraged, however, for we know that nothing happens without purpose and that God is constantly guiding our lives, molding and shaping us to who He wants us to be.
He rejoices over the work He begins in you! And what's more, we read in Philippians that the work begun inside of us will be completed until Jesus returns, for the work that is inside of you is far richer, far more valuable and far more important than the work you achieve throughout your life. I firmly believe (even if I struggle with it myself) that everything in life, especially the mundane things that you really hate, are God's training ground for us. He is building up the character in us that reflects Christ so that we will be ready for the ultimate work He has for us in our lives.
But guess what! God also believes in learning on the job. That's right! Where you are now is just as much God's work for you as the 'ultimate task' He is building you up for! I have dreams of being a doula but I believe my ultimate task is someday to be a wife and a mother of many children. I believe adoption is in my future and training and homeschooling my children will be a main mission field. But right now, my job is to serve and minister to my immediate family. Not only to I get the privilege of inputting into their lives, but it is a training ground for the 'one day'.
Trust God! He knows what he is doing and will direct your life if you submit to His will and allow Him to shape you. It's not easy - I know that, but I have also learned that it is so worth it to let go and let God. I pray you will have peace throughout your life's journey and contentment where God leads you... He loves you and will never forsake you... I can't express everything I am trying to convey, so I'll let God do that for me. :) This is one of my favourite Psalms - I pray it will bless you richly and eternally. :)