You can kick and scream on the inside, but that won't change His mind - He's calling you. Get up and go.
You can offer yourself and God all the excuses in the world, but just like Moses, the calling won't change.
In Esther, Mordecai tells his young cousin the queen, that if she does not do what she has been called to do, God would deliver His people by some other means, but she and her father's house would be wiped out.
God's plan never fails.
I repeat that - God's plan never fails. What He wants said will be said. What He wants done will be done, no matter the means. The one who misses out is the one who said no.
Tonight at church, I was supposed to pray and prophesy for the youth of the town. I had the word on my heart, and my spirit was burning, but I held back, too nervous.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7)
How I wish I had obeyed straight away! I am sometimes so afraid of not having the right words, or being 'up the front', that I miss the opportunities. I know without a doubt that I had been given the word that needed to be said because not long after this, someone else stepped up and said exactly what I had on my heart. And after the service, my pastor came and gently told me that I had been supposed to pray. It was nothing we had pre-arranged - it was God telling her and me that I had a job to do.
God's word still went forth as He intended. I was the one who missed out.
As I said, I learned an important lesson: don't fail to do good. Listen to the voice of God and act on what He says. Don't be left with the 'what-if's. Pray that your trust will grow. Lean into and on Him, because He won't fail you. Don't be the one to miss out. <3